When I said “I give up” I meant I give up on trying to convince you to believe me. I give up on trying to win you over to my side. I meant that I give up on pouring my heart out to you in hopes that you’ll be the person I so desperately want you to be.
Maybe one day someone special will come along and choose me without hesitation. Maybe they’ll think as highly as me as I have always thought of you. & Maybe, just maybe, I’ll finally be able to pour all my love into someone who won’t take me for granted.
Then again, maybe I really am unlovable. Maybe my mom was telling the truth when she said no one could ever want me. Maybe my ex wasn’t lying when he said I was only ever good for s**. & Maybe my husband is telling the truth when he says I’m ugly.

All I’ve ever wanted was to be loved. Honestly, don’t know if that’s possible. I’m even growing to hate myself.