The truth is no one arounds me knows what exactly i am feeling right now. This whole week has been unbearable for me and i feel like i have suffered so much in silence that its making me loose control of myself. I find it so hard to find someone i can talk to and be comfortable around. I constantly live in fear due to my past experiences with people and i barely even recognise who exactly am i. Im mentally exhausted and its so depressing. Ive been struggling with ocd for years and its an everyday struggle to not think about it. Recently i lost my wallet and it has taken a toll on my mental health, i feel like dying but i cant because ive got a long list of things to do before attempting it. im packed and overwhelmed, but no one really cares when im completely burnt out. people see me and describe me as someone who is bubbly and cheerful but im tired too, do u know? help…