I have been married to my wife for almost 3 years, she and I both travel a lot for weeks at a time with our jobs. One day when I was the one home/in town, I was doing my usual thing to deal with the hornies. I was on my back on the floor in a 69 with our male lab, it was something I had started doing occasionally when I was a teen with family dog. Was sort of overwhelmed/lost in it all and when the fun was over when I pushed him off me and got my head clear, I am stunned to see my mother in law standing there. She had just dropped in to say hey and walked in on me in a cocksucking 69 with the male dog (well the dog was just licking). I covered myself with my hands and could not even speak, figured my life was ruined in all ways possible. Mother in law left room and came back and handed me a robe and told me we clearly needed to have a talk. She had not left in shock or rage or disgust yet so i figured it at least meant there was a chance my deviance had mot screwed my life. Was a long time listening to her but was basically she was shocked by what she had walked in on but at same time not surprised. She said it was deviant and degrading myself but at least was not with another woman. Started asking questions covering how long I had been doing such things and was I gay or bi, the usual questions I guess. But then she said she was not going to tell her daughter as long as I did not lie to her for what else was on her mind. She asked if I was a virgin until her daughter (yes). Then asked if it was because of my mother ( also yes). She said that she had never fully understood why I was married to this daughter because without insulting her own daughter she said that it had never made sense when I could have had anyone I wanted. That surprised me. She asked if i had been having s** with my mother because she had always been able to sense something strange about my behavior when I was around my mother. Had me tell it all, how my mother had come to me after seeing the results of my first w******** on the sheets in the laundry and that my mother had begun to m********* me daily after that as a way to control and keep my cehavior in check. That the day I turned 16 my mother added sucking me into the mix, and that other than touching her she had never engaged in full s**. Mother in law basically said that she imagined my mother passing away when I was 22 was probably very difficult and that she understood me and the “not quite right” sense she had always worried about. She told me that this eas going to stay secret but asked me to olease not keep degrading myself in such a way and to get in touch with her if I felt I was going to do it again. I promised I would do my best to not degrade myself like this again. But at least my life did not immediately fall apart. She started texting/calling/touching base often and it helped me not feel so lonely and have the urge but was not a total solution. So alone again a few weeks later i called her and said that I was feeling like i wanted to do it again. Since she lived a few blocks away she was on my doorstep in moments. We talked for a while and it helped it was less lonely and was distracting from what i wanted to be doing. When the general chit chat was done she watched some tv with me until it was late. She went to the bathroom when she came back she told me to trust her then had me stretch out on the sofa with my head in her lap and i was stunned when she took off her shirt and bra and opened my pants. She told me to not think, not talk, just let this happen. She began to stroke me slowly and all I could do was look up helplessly at her as she gave me a long slow h*******. When she could tell I was close she told me to latch onto her breast and soon I was whimpering on her breast as I came. After I caught my breath she cleaned me up with her shirt and told me it was time for bed. We went to the bedroom and she had me keep the lights off as she undressed and had me lay with my back to her. Talked softly to me and told me she was doing this for her daughter but also for me so that I did not feel the need to do what she had seen me doing. Told me that our secret was that from now on when her daughter was travelling she would stay with me to help me learn not to do such things again. With her lying naked against me I kept getting erections through the night and she masturbated me again each time until morning. When I woke with an erection she told me to go empty my bladder and come back to her, and she took me to breast again and we lay like that dozing off and on until early afternoon. She left briefly to get some clothes and when she came back she had us bathe together and talk over some things. That for the time being this was only going to be her hand until she figured out how to balance helping me avoid behaving the way I had and to try to respect that i was her daughter’s husband.