I send the nudes to feel wanted, loved, needed and appreciated. I also cant function with a bf or gf telling me what to do because I need instruction from my significant other. My mom also doesnt use my preferred name which I only created because of the predator I wanted to erase my gender. I wanted to kill myself I wanted to kill someone else. I was ready to commit mass murder. My life was actually going slightly better for me until jasper came along and decided to ruin it. I just want someone to love me but I cant have that unless its online. The sexting and the roleplay was also my escape from the real world. Yes I know its wrong yes its disgusting yes im disgusting I know that. Something im also told is that I have a perfect body so no matter what I do there is always someone thats gonna be coming after my body
