when i was 12 there was this boy in my grade, he became a close friend but was just over 2yrs older than me since he was held back as a kid. we got close when i was 12 and he had turned 15 a few months earlier so i was almost 13 but not yet. meaning i was going into 8th grade and he should’ve been a sophomore. i legit looked like a child and he looked way older, ppl would often assume i was 11 and that he was 16. he had a huge crush on me and it lasted for several years. i never liked him back so i’d reject him. in one of our last convos i asked “would you ever date someone your brothers age (his bro was my age but the grade below bc he missed the birthday cutoff)” he said of course not. so i said “i’m your brothers age so why do you like me? you’re older than my sister…” and he shrugged it off saying it was normal. it made me uncomfortable. was i… dramatic? am i still dramatic to be thinking abt it every so often after all these years (18 rn). is that a form of grooming??? is that insensitive to even say bc what if it’s not?? idk… everyone would say it wasn’t a big deal but it still weirds me out :/
