I can’t even imagine being so obsessed with someone that it completely consumes you to the point that all you do is sit in front of your computer 24/7 repeating yourself constantly going up and down up and down, round and round.

Get a hold of yourself. Think realistically. From what I see,The bottom line from what I see out of you is you are too insane and clingy which would drive anyone away or make them overlook you. It’s unattractive. It’s actually repulsive. It’s the first rule in any book, not that you should need a book like as if you’re the Wile Coyote trying to catch the Roadrunner. It should be natural. You are too clingy and obviously mentally ill, it’s repulsive but the other thing you are doing that I can see is you are telling people and her all of your serious flaws, you’re mentally ill, you’re on meds, you are admitting s*** that makes people naturally run away from you. Then on top of all that you’re laying down threats, ultimatums, demands. You obviously lack confidence.

You are breaking every rule in the book (which again, should be common knowledge, you should need a book like some loser) and you just don’t seem to get it. You admit you are inexperienced, which is also really bad. It’s also repulsive, you need to shut up, but it’s to late for that now. She knows. You told her and everyone else too. You sound 18 years old if I’m being honest.

That’s just a short list of what I see out of you that makes this thing impossible. The piss fetish is bad. To the great majority of people, women that’s gross and weird. There’s 5x the amount of offenses that I have seen out of you when it comes to this. Shut up.

Give it up already. Seriously give it up, by a hold of yourself. Forget about her, relax, suffer it out with no contact, distract yourself, stay away from it, it will never happen. I am telling you it will not happen. Forget it. For real. Get over it, suffer it out and if/when you Ind something else, you better f****** control yourself and be cool. Back the f*** off, don’t be ok clingy and leave the f****** s** out of it. Most women do not want a man whose top priority is s**, especially weird s**. DO NOT BRING YOU WEIRD A** FETISHES INTO IT untill the relationship, the real one on one offline relationship is well established.

Nobody want to be with someone who think they are repulsive. You are repulsive to her. It’s a hard pill to swallow, I know, I have had to swallow it at times, but it’s true. Forget it. Don’t ever speak of it again.