i think sometimes when you hurt someone, all the s** in the world wouldn’t cure it, it no longer has appeal. i know that’s hard for a s** addict to understand but it’s the truth. you enter territory you might not be familiar with from what you’ve done. one where you might have only known a person in a certain way, but that way is the last thing in the world they will ever want from you again. they will instead enjoy the thing you use to do together in all ways except the way the two of you did it (somewhere else of course)–because you hurt them with it, and so that way has lost its appeal to them forever, especially with you.