I’ve known so many horrible people in my life I really can’t believe it looking back, I really wish I had just been a loner from the start and never tried to have friends. 2 from school years remain, and the ones I made in adult years have largely been disappointments besides a select few who I never get to see anymore for obvious reasons. I don’t want the time back or anything, things are most definitely better in the midlife than they’ve ever been for me, I just wish I had never bothered in the first place with all these losers.