Consider me defeated. You have won. Here’s what you won:
Im not gonna hurt her if shes not even f****** with me. In fact Im gonna feel guilty about that for the rest of my life. Im deleting my entire pornstash, Im going nofap again, and Im staying off the internet for a while until I become civilised again. Im done with women permanently. They’re nothing but a headache and a cocktease. Enjoy the cptsd. I know I will. The world can blow me.