I think I’m in love with this guy. He’s pretty famous. I know he took notice of me online. I love his personality, values, virtues, and the way he looks, how tall he is, his beautiful brown hair blue eyes. I want to become rich too so I feel good dating him. I have some acne scars that I desperately want to fix with microneedling.
I give myself 7 months time to make my acne scars disappear and become my own boss. If he’s still single and he asks me out, I’d say yes. I want to buy my own home, be a girl boss, be independent, and I want to be with him.
If i can’t it’s okay too. It’s been a long time since i felt this way about another men ever since I started dating my ex. Now that that relationship is over, I feel much better. I tell myself that I shouldn’t fall in love too fast. That i shouldn’t imagine too much too soon.
There’s a fear that I’d revert back to the time when my mental health isn’t so good. I don’t want him to think there’s something wrong with me.
I like him so much I don’t want to mess things up. My heart is beating erratically in my chest. I want to be with him so badly.
I think I’m not completely comfortable in my own skin. I don’t think I look good enough profile view.
Ah what am I saying. I’m usually not like this. Such disorganized thoughts. Is this what being a human feels like?
I’ll focus on my goals and go with the flow, if it happens with him, great, if not, it’s okay.