i feel sorry for you. You really are obsessed and sick. It seems your body image is really fuked up. Someone did a number on you. I understand the need and desire to not want to be or get fat. But not to the degree of KILLING yourself to be thin. No. The true psychotic to be brutally honest are those with Eating Disorders. They see things that are distorted. Its not based in truth or reality. Its sad. I met some lovely girls. Anorexic. They looked hideous. no joke. I think too fat is terrible. But being too thin? is just as creepy and sick. Its like watching a dead corpse…just walking on legs. Its groce. But there seem to be plenty of guys into s** with a decomposing body. ITs nasty. seriously. I hate being fat. (i’m about 50 lbs overweight) Yes. But at LEAST I don’t resemble…a dead body. when the person stops looking human or alive. its sad. Does a woman truly think….looking like a corpse is “attractive”…i’m not talking lean and thin. I”m talking….near death. Its sad.