Why would I ever kill myself when I can just make my existence everyone else’s problem. That’s cosmic karma. I will make everyone i was ever close with as miserable as i am as revenge for abandoning me, demonising me, and refusing to forgive the symptoms of my mentall illness. Theyll all pay. Ill spend the rest of my life systematically destroying every last one of their lives. Ill stay healthy and outlive them all out of spite. If you starve me of love, its your fault if i turn into a sociopath. I deserved special treatment because im one of a kind. All of my former friends and every girl who ever rejected me will pay dearly in the end. I have nothing better to do.