I’m new to this so forgive me if I say anything bad. I did something that I am not proud of, something that I knew was bad but did anyway because I was lonely and didn’t know any better. I sexted a 15 year old when I was 18. At the time believe it or not I didn’t really think that much about it because I thought it wasn’t a big deal (it was a very big deal, never do that it can actually mess up that kid for life). I have these fears of people coming up to me and saying that you don’t deserve to live, that you just need to crawl in a hole and never see the sun ever again. But I don’t believe this thought prosses. Why does one bad thing mean you don’t get to live a life, that you don’t get to follow are dreams, that you don’t get to ever be a better person. So I desisted to challenge this thought. I told my parents and they were scared like I was. I didn’t wanna hurt anyone or be someone others would fear or hate. We talked about about it for a solid 3 months and we all finally desisted that I needed to get get a therapist and take meds for my depression. After one session I felt a bit better. And after another I felt even better. Then after months worth of sessions I finally started to stop hating myself. And here is what I got out of that. I was a stupid kid, that’s a short version. When people say that when you turn 18 that your an adult that deserves what ever punishment you get, I don’t fully agree. With somethings yes I get it but for a few other that are a bit more gray. The brain doesn’t stop developing until your 25 and then your able to make better judgments and do things better. This is in NO WAY an excuse for what I did not at all what I did was not okay at all, but that does not mean that one thing I did was me. You have to go through trials in order to become a better person, yes the actions I could have done could have been less bad I agree but what’s done it done. I took the lesson that I got out of that (which is don’t date someone or have s***** actions with them unless they are over 18, I know it varies from country to country but I think this is how it should be all over the world) and I have moved on from it. And I will dedicate my life to making this world a better place then when I found it so mistakes like this will never happen again. Some of you may think I’m lying and that’s fine, because I know in my heart that I am a good person that deserves love and respect. Thanks for reading this I hope that you have a blessed life.