I’m the guy who tried to kill himself with a juul. This is a reply to my previous post. I don’t hate God. I try to find Him everywhere I go and even though I may be so trapped and hopeless in my mind my life is blessed and I am thankful for the things I do have. I have blasphemed before but it was never like premeditated. I dont wake up and think about blaspheming. I feel awful I did it. I don’t know how to cope with myself or the fact I’m probably going to spend an eternity in Hell. I don’t hate God. He’s answered my prayers many times before. Mental illness is a b****. Sometimes when it happens I completely flash and become a completely different person. I don’t know how to handle and really can’t handle that amount of irritation and pure agony. I hope that at least means something. I hope I can be forgiven for my blasphemy and have a real relationship with Him one day. I feel awful. Please find God. Never become what you hate. Sin is more deadly than it may seem.