Initial experience of m*********** – i’m sharing this as part of the personal work i’m doing to be an authentic and integrated man. Part of that process is unpacking all of the secrets that i’ve carried with me in a safe space. So, here goes: When i was a teenager, probably around 11-13, and discovering myself s*******, over the course of a few months, i masturbated onto the stomach of my dad’s yorki. I even tried to stick a finger in it’s v***** (it didn’t work). I still don’t understand why and i’ve never had any desire for anything similar since then. In fact, i had completely blocked it out until i began doing this work and came across this activity. only then did it come back to me.
I’m not sure why it happened, but I forgive that child and want him to know that he is loved unconditionally. That he is safe and secure and he doesn’t need to be scared. I am an adult now and will take care of you.