Had an okay night with the ex sister in law after my rant about how it had all been about more to me than just paying her for s**. Watched movies with her curled up in my lap. When it was late she said she wanted to go to bed and took my hand to go with her. When the lights were off, she slipped under the covers with me and i realized that she had taken off my tshirt and was only wearing underwear. She asked me to take my shirt off as well, and she snuggled in under my arm and threw her leg over mine and talked to me in the dark. Told me she wanted us to be ok and that she understood that I was upset that it had felt like it was all about money to her. That it had been about how well I treated her also but that she understood that that was not enough for me to feel the s** was real for her too. She said that she hoped she could find a way to show me that it was not just about what I gave her or did for her or how I treated her, that she knew it was her version of my thing about feeling how s** with her had been like being with a goddess for me and that it was not just throwing money around for s**, and how I had told her that I had not even been m*********** between our previous paid appointments. She said she felt like if we took our time we would find ways to prove that to each other. She fell asleep and slept the night bare chested on me as I stroked her hair and spine and realized I was in way too deep and falling for her for my own good but I hoped she was right that we could prove those things to each other.