The really wild part about all of this is if at any point you had just walked up to me in person and talked to me for 5 minutes between 2016-2017, none of this would have happened. Then maybe I would have had a chance to charm the s*** out of you and convince you to date me before you ever got with fat f***. If not, at least I would have had some closure and if I was lucky a best friend. There has always been this degree of seperation between us because you are a coward, and believe me, I know cowards because I’m the biggest one I know. What were you really afraid of? Was it the fact that your eyes lit up and your knees got weak whenever you looked into my eyes? Were you afraid you’d fall under my spell and wanted to avoid it because you were in a financially beneficial relationship and I’m a dead end loser? Whatever it is, you drove me completely insane. YOU PROMISED WE WOULD ALWAYS BE FRIENDS AND YOU LIED! PEOPLE WHO BREAK PROMISES AND RUN FROM THEIR PAST GET NO MERCY. PEOPLE WHO WILL CONDEMN OTHERS TO MADNESS FOR THEIR OWN PERSONAL PEACE WILL BE PUNISHED. I ONLY REGRET TWO THINGS, FLIPPING OUT WHEN YOU LEFT, AND HUMILIATING YOU WHEN IT WAS CLEAR YOU WERE NEVER GOING TO HIT ME UP FIRST. When you first left, I did everything right to fix things and improve myself, so you should have come back, instead, you punished me for my efforts and tried to move on with your life without me in it. It may be your choice, your wish, but that doesn’t mean I have to respect it. You destroyed me, intentionally or(most likely)not, and I will continue attempting to hurt you unless you remind me that you’re a real person and not just some vague concept that only exists on the internet. Remind me that I have a heart and maybe then we can both know peace.
