I’m not cunning, I’m stupid, I’m that easy f***, I’m not worthy of love, I was born by accident. I struggle to communicate, I was thought I don’t matter, I’m clumsy, I mess up, I’m a pushover. I didn’t knew I was autistic for so long, I was tagged unfeminine by teachers, family and classmates. I’m called lazy, I only realised I’m depressed, I’m numb I’m stoned walled. It doesn’t matter who I’m, I’m not cut out for this world. I’m a mistake, an ugly mistake.