_i_s_i_ !! I’ve been secretly loving you for more than two years! I’m so sorry for being a p****.. I’m so sorry for being a drama king… I’m so sorry for making you wait for so long! Yes, i am indeed bi polar… I really want you to know the things that keep changing my mind…
I have this feeling that if i become your bf, I’ll be hurt a lot… You only talk to me when there’s no one else around.. I feel so neglected when you’re with someone else… I really don’t want to become neglected boyfriend.. The way you chat up and laugh with other men makes me feel so insecure… I have a feeling that i can’t make you happy the way they do. You don’t mind talking alone with another man for a long time, you have no idea how much the jealousy is killing me… I always feel uneasy because i know that a man and woman will never stay friends forever… Romance always starts from friendship and i don’t want someone else to fall in love with you… Also, i don’t like the men that are always around you, specially ***** …. he did unlikable things to me if only you knew what that shady b****** is truly like… I’m convinced that you’re a natural flirt! …. But i know that these are all my disadvantages as a foreigner… Maybe if i was born in your country I’ll have no problem keeping up.. I’m sure you’ll like me better and I’m sure i can get along with everyone better..
Now you think that i already have a girlfriend but actually i don’t! It’s just a lie hoping that you’ll get jealous… There’s this girl who used to be the best friend of my ex.. i know that she’s been loving me for almost 5 years.. I think she deserves a chance and i know that she’ll treat me better.. I can get her if i say the word but i don’t want to because I know that long distance relationships rarely work and I still love you so much, it’s still you! I may be acting as if things are alright but the truth is, I’m greatly burdened… I really want to talk to you about all these things in personal… Hope that I’ll get a chance to talk to you in private and hope that I’ll be able to build the courage to speak up… I love you, I know it’s going to be a bumpy ride but I’m willing to give it a try…..
