I feel terrible today. You see, I babysit my two little sisters three or four times a week while my mom and dad are at work. I love the job because I love kids and I can’t wait to have kids of my own someday. Ever since I was 11 I’ve had a “Baby Binder” full of everything you can possibly imagine. Baby names, nursery ideas, family traditions I can do with them, ways to bond with them. Honestly the binder has gotten super thick. It probably is silly to most people. My mom is so amazing though. When I babysit my siblings it is just one big fail. They make a mess of the house, they disrespect everything I say because I’m their sister. Obviously this is something I’ve expected from kids and I even wrote ways to deal with it in my binder. Nothing works. I don’t know. I just feel like if I can’t handle these things then how could I ever handle kids of my own one day? Seems silly, but true.
