i feel so vulnerable and pathetic when im feeling down. i shouldnt talk about it to anyone i know. maybe theyll see this, i hope not. i just feel so worthless and i feel like i dont get enough attention when i clearly do. its all my fault for being a selfish idiot. i cant even talk about it to people i know or itll make me feel even worse. im better than that. no im not. these are just mad ramblings. im so sorry. i just wish i wouldnt try to act like some sort of guardian angel, especially when in reality im just a prick. its all too much. i need to go. i am so sorry.
