Just feels good to write stuff down. I’m f****** a 30 year old car salesman at my work. I am 20. We have been keeping it a secret because he says he could get fired. The problem is, I’m starting to get attached, and I don’t think he wants anything more from me than s**. The last guy I was with just used me for s** too…. I am beginning to feel like an object, although I know I deserve the world. I really like him though… I mean, yeah we just f***… but he makes me dinner, and cuddles me all night, makes sure I have water… gets me lunch at work… sometimes I think maybe he likes me back, especially when he leans over and kisses me on the forehead when he thinks I have fallen asleep at night… but then I notice that when he talks to other people he is super intrigued in the conversation and is smiling and laughs…. but when we are together he is on his phone like constantly and doesn’t really strike up conversation. Just writing out my feelings here it helps me clear my mind thanks for coming to my ted talk
