Mom, I hate you….. why do you keep pestering and taunting me? I hate you for everything you did that hurt me…. especially for that thing you told at school. I would never forget that. I think that my parents don’t love me as much as they love my little brother…. I hate, hate, hate and hate my mother. She is the worst mom in the world. She never understands me, or doesn’t even care about me. Only cares about my little brother who is 7. They say that he is smaller, so he needs more attention, but I didn’t get that much attention when I was small….. she was unfair to me even when I was a baby. When I was like 2 or 3, we went to an amusement park, and she left me alone! Thankfully my dear dad found me. Before, my dad used to love me, but now he is also caring more about my brother. I feel neglected and depressed… I have no one to tell this too…. and have a deep pain in my heart. They don’t even understand me, and my needs. My mother thinks that I am a short tempered fool, but as she is short tempered too, we don’t get along well. Do you think I should suicide? She is threatening me that she would close up the computer. Now what? Then I wouldn’t even get to talk to my friends. What do I do? I think I should kill myself, as I think there is no importance or need of me in my family………………
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If you commit suicide, you fail yourself, the one person who still understands you.
T.A.
I know EXACTLY what your talking about, maybe not to the extent to thinking about commiting suicide, but i understand the attention deficiency your getting. Sometimes it gets so worse between me and my mum it turns into full on physical fights, and we both end up getting hurt in more ways than one. My only advice would be to stick close to your dad, because thats how i get through it, but still attempt to love your mum even though she puts you through so much. I hope it all works out for you 🙂
oh well, thanx for the help….. but still, itry 2 understand… but she doesn’t 🙁 she says im stupid, idiot… and all the bad things in the world. she even calls me satan 🙁
Your mother is a bitch. And you can tell her I said that.
T.A.
Take it easy …. you ned to see things from her nkle too asmother not being selfish to yr needs always. OPEN yr mind & Eyes. Give space to her
It’s funny, as I was reading what you were writing, I was remembering myself when I was 13,14,15 and how mad I used to get at my mom. I’m guessing you’re still young and you’re going through a phase of developing your personality and fiinding out who you are. I’m sure that your fights are crazy and wild and that your feeling pain and feeling alone due to the lack of attention from your parents. But did you sit down and think that maybe you might be exagerating? Because I came to a point where I realised that, and I realised I was over thinking it too much and a year or so later, with this positive outlook, everything became so much better.
Mothers and fathers insult us at times, and we deal with it. Most important is to keep your respect towards them. My mom has insulted me a few times but it doesn’t mean she doesn’t love me or hates me. Don’t take it to that extreme. The more you grow, the more you’ll learn to appreciate them.
Learn to understand your brother and love him for who he is. Love the fact that your parents love him. I don’t know how to express to you that when you grow up things will change. Don’t fret too much. And don’t be too hung up on all this.
There is no abuse coming from your parents so i’m guessing its a phase and it will pass.
And yes your parents love you dearly even if they can’t express it well enough.
Lilith