I have no friends and do nothing with my life. All my friends are out doing s*** and I’m here sitting at home on this f****** site on Halloween. Sad thing is, that I didn’t choose to stay home, I stayed home cause I don’t have anything else to do. The two friends I have, it’s not like they don’t care about me, they just can’t be hanging out only with me 24/7 I get that. I just wish I could go out and talk to people and be invited places but no I’m just a loser I guess, I mean I always have been. It’s just it’s my favourite holiday and home sitting in the dark in my room like it’s any other day because I legitimately can’t do anything else. I may be over reacting but I feeling like crying my heart out since I know it’s probably gonna be like this for my birthday too, even if it is 1 month away. Yeah I’ll get birthday wishes, I’m not looking for presents from my friends, I already told them that but it’ll just be another day. I mean I guess that’s ok tho, it’s just a birthday, it’s a little self absorbed to make a big deal out of it I guess and it’s only one day, 24 hours and it’ll be over, yeah, doesn’t really matter. I’m rambling now, tho that’s what I always do. I don’t know why I’m posting this, I guess part of me wants someone to know how I feel, even if it’s someone I’ll never know, and who’ll never know me. I’ve tried telling my friends, and they try and make me feel better, but I don’t want them to feel obligated to spend all their time with me, they have other friends, closer friends so it’s not really my place to throw this s*** on them. It’s tge last thing either of them need. Also for those of you wondering, yes, I only have two friends I am comfortable talking to and hanging out with, and to those who care or whatnot, I’m in grade ten so I guess you could just write this off as growing up, or puberty/hormones, being a teen, idk what it is but it’s just how I feel.

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