The other night I wrapped it around my neck. Wasn’t even planning to do it but I just did it to see how it would feel once I kill myself. Within seconds of it tightly wrapped around my neck I fainted after frantically trying to get it off. I remember thinking “Not now, I have to wait for a better night to do it.” Thinking back on it, I was tired and had easily passed out. It won’t be like that every night. I wish I had followed through. I wish I killed myself on a night that was physically and mentally easy. Instead today I’m left with a red rash looking thing around my neck. If anyone asks I’ll say it’s from my choker rubbing on my neck but honestly I want somebody to notice. Not an adult definitely not. But someone my age from school to suspect what I did. I want someone to be concerned for me. They’ll never notice it though

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