I talk to you and we share so much. I love you and I know you love me. But then you bring him up out of no where and it’s like a stab to my heart. I’m not that person to ask someone to leave who they are with for me. I would never be that person. I’d never be that person. But I refuse to tell you that I dream about just that every night, because I’m afraid it will scare you away. That I’m jealous. That I want you to myself. I want nobody else. And it kills me every day knowing I will never fully have you. I know I do this to myself. Talking to you and loving you and settling with being the second because I don’t know if I could live without the person I truly believe is my soulmate. I’m also afraid of what this love would drive me to do. I think I’m insane and I’m sorry for it.

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