I said I didnt mean to hurt you. Truth be told I did. I didnt stop once to think about how it would make you feel until after I let it happen. I put no thought in to how my sleeping with him would effect you until I had already done it. It could’ve been any one but I chose him even though you hated him. I think I may have welcomed him to my bed just to put more distance between us. I didn’t realize it till after id already done it. So even if I didn’t do it with the intent to hurt you I think some part of me knew it would and the fact that I did it anyway just means I did in fact want to hurt you even if I didn’t see it like that in the beginning.
