I have been living with my indiscretion for six years now. It was during those long months of COVID. I lived in a complex with a roommate. She was an essential worker, a nurse, and I did HR work from home. Everyone was going crazy.

Our neighbor, a man in his thirties, came over and asked me to fix him a warm meal. He wanted a woman to serve him. I let him in, we knew him. Sure let me cook you something. I got out the eggs and some ham and bread for toast, and put some coffee on. Some conversation, I thought. I was standing before the stove and he grabbed me from behind and cupped my breasts and would not let go, he started h****** me.

I barely got the stove turned off before he turned me and pushed me over the table, using his upper body to hold me down he continued to hump hard against me. No words, just uncontrolled passion. He got his pants to fall down and how he had his open erection against me. I had on shorts, and he pushed on the waist band until I gave in and pulled them down for him.

He penetrated, that word is appropriate, penetrated until he could not go in any further. Hard shoves and pushing in, and shoving in a again. Until he reached climax and I felt him hold me tighter until he was over his e**********. My first time with a man. He told me the woman had to s*** his p**** clean.

Lesbians do not s*** d***. But a hold existed, a primal hold, and I sucked him clean, sucked him until he was hard again and this time he had s** with me on the sofa, face to face. Deep kisses, lots of tongue, his p**** penetrating and penetrating, until I lost any semblance of control and climaxed myself under him. He continued, until he climaxed again. And back to sucking his p**** clean.

I have a child. I married my girlfriend. He has unwritten rights and exercises them at will. When he comes to me, I give in. It is useless to defend myself. When he says he wants a woman, he wants me. When he wants a woman, he has me. I was not able to stop him, I surrendered to his advances, to the extend of cleaning his p**** with my mouth.