I don’t talk to my dad as much as I should. It’s not like I hate him or anything..I just can’t find it in me to truly care and obviously that makes me feel s***** but it’s true.

He was in jail most of my childhood and when he got out we did do fun things but I have no bond with him. I have know urge to tell him about my life or problems.

Plus after grandma died I think that was the last thing for me. He never made an effort to visit her while she was sick being taken care of by my aunts. He waited till she died and cried like he had been there.

I get it’s unfair of me to say that. I know he probably cried because he didn’t make an effort and he feels guilty. I just can’t help but feel mad though.

But like I said I don’t hate the man. He’s never done me wrong. I just can’t go out of my way to keep in touch like I should.

It’s not like it’s all my fault either!! He literally takes weeks to respond when I do text him.

I really do feel bad but how do I explain that talking to him just makes me feel awkward and a tad uncomfortable?