I was convinced I would be Nun and I had become a Novitiate. It was then that I had to travel because my father was on his death bed. A cousin, he thought it was stupid of me, and he decided to take matters into his own hands, he forced s** on me and he got me pregnant. I was then forced to marry him, after which I had four other children. I had no choice but to be his wife and have his children and run his home for him. I am too old now for regret, but I have always felt guilty.