When i was 14,i finially made my First Holy Communion in the class of 7 year olds.So that i would fit in,my parents dressed me like a ‘littlegirl’ in a poofy,short sleeve knee length communion dress and veil with the lace anklets and white maryjane shoes,and under my dress,a white tee shirt with a cloth diaper and ‘rubberpants’just like the little girls wore under their dresses.After my party,my parents took my relatives to the airport,so i was home alone.My crush,Eric,who was 15,came over and saw me and got very aroused!While we were kissing,he put his hand up under the back of my dress and felt my diaper and rubberpants and got even more aroused!He got my dress off of me,then got me to my knees and shoved his hard p**** into my mouth and told me to s*** it!After a few minutes,he came in my mouth and i had to swallow his c**!Since then i have been feeling really guilty that i let that happen and that i let God down! Can anyone forgive me?