I cheated on my boyfriend of 2 years with one of my best friends. I went 15+ hours away to college and my friend (we’ll call him Landon) and I were going to the same school. My boyfriend is not the jealous type whatsoever and never questions when I hangout with my guy friends because usually I never give him a reason to be. Never in my life did I plan for this to happen and I have absolutely no excuses it was literally the middle of the day and I was dead sober but me and Landon were just hanging out as we usually did and somehow it escalated very quick. I was aware what I was doing the entire time and I felt like s*** but I guess not enough to stop. I snapped my boyfriend right after like nothing happened and Landon and I just got dressed and moved on but I felt like absolute a** for doing that and I still do. I haven’t told a soul and Landon has a girlfriend too so it’s just us keeping it between ourselves. It only happened once but that was months ago and I’ve never told my boyfriend even though I’ve gone back to see him 3 times already. I know at some point me, Landon and my boyfriend are all gonna end up in the same room together and I know we’ll both just pretend like nothing ever happened but I don’t know how long I can just keep this to myself. I know if I tell my boyfriend he’s break up with me as we’ve had the dealbreaker conversation before but at this point it’s keep it to myself and keep my boyfriend or tell him knowing he’s breaking up with me immediately. I have yet to understand why I did this because my boyfriend is the most perfect person and the last thing I would want to do is cheat on him but that’s exactly what I did…