Feeling suicidal…
I’m pregnant and I have a 4year old child. I had to quit my job because Walmart was literally abusing me and I couldn’t handle the stress. But know I have no money and no one will hire me because of how far along I am. My ex hasn’t paid any form of child support. He hasn’t even offered to help with the bills.
8 months I’ve been paying for everything.
They just shut off my water…
How am I supposed to fight for full custody when I currently can’t pay for anything? I was paying for everything. I could have taken him to court.
I should have.
Know all my hard work, I have nothing to show for. But he has a job. He got a car. He has a place to live.
His family takes care of him.
And I am nothing.
I think about shooting myself in the head. It would be instant.
I’d shoot myself in the head against a pillow , so there won’t be that big of a mess….
I feel so guilty though. I’m pregnant. I very much want to have this baby. And I know my four year old will be taken advantage of. I wouldn’t be there to protect her. Even from my own family. And her family…
I wish I didn’t feel this way, and had a clear mind of what to do. But I don’t. I feel alone. I feel worthless.