A very long time ago I used to j******* around my family basically due to my rapidly declining mental well-being and health I started just enacting on s*** due to the voices in my head telling me to do s*** so I used to purposely like go places where my family frequented or just when I was around people like say I had people that I knew that were like a sleep around me and I’d start jerking off and I know I’m a terrible human being for it I live basically everyday of my life regretting it and hoping that one day people can forgive me, and yes I’ll probably be going for mental health for this cuz I don’t want this devolving into a full i***** thing I think it might be something around the whole idea of feeling safe around them but I know this makes me a dirtbag human for doing it anyways just hope one day I can fix myself and make up for the wrongs I’ve done.