Sometimes I jealous of my friends because they get all this male validation and I don’t think I get any. They cat cat-called, spoken to by drunk men, flirted on, etc. I feel terrible because cat calling and stuff is like s***** assault n all, but I can’t help but feel jealous because I feel as if I am too ugly to receive attention. I get told all the time that I’m gorgeous and that I’m pretty and all that jazz. But, I can’t believe it myself because there is nothing to prove it. I know it shouldn’t be like that, and that I should be confident in who I am. But, I can’t help but want a guy to like me, want to be flirted with, want to be looked at (not even s*******, even just romantically), even want to be cat called etc. I’m not jealous of my friends being gorgeous because honestly they slay and i love that for them. I’m more sad that i feel im just too ugly to get anything I want. I realised that every friend I had that liked the same guy, got the guy. And every guy I liked, liked one of my friends. I don’t hate my friends I just hate myself for looking like i do and not having any confidence.
If u read all of that, thank you. If you relate, I hope you become confident in yourself unlike myself :).