i’ve never told anybody this, ever, and the guilt eats me alive every day
i was abused really badly my whole childhood up til i was 15. when i was 14 i felt a hand on my shoulder when i was alone in my room. freaked out and threw it off of me without looking. it was my kitten (very tiny at tbe time, shouldnt even have been away from her mother yet) who had climbed on my shoulder from my tv stand. her head was slammed hard against the wall and her nose was bleeding and she wasnt moving. i have never hated myself more in my life and i was crying so f****** hard. she wound up being totally fine and was rehomed and i’d never ever do anything else like that again, it was an accident and i didny know it was her, but i’ve attempted suicide multiple times becahse of this and i’ll never forgive myself until the day i f****** die