I/Op now 18 almost 19 years old and am reflecting on my life…note I have lots of neurological issues and severe trauma from childhood-now and have done fucked up s*** because of it…When I was 9 I committed p*** acts with my 5 year old adopted cousin…I know I didn’t know what I was doing I myself was a traumatized child though it doesn’t change how sicking and wrong it feels now…she doesn’t remember it that I know of but it makes me sick. Similarly at around the same age older children took my innocence by exposing me to p*** & other lewd things including z******** I was infact encouraged by many of these teens [yes teens like my age now or maybe a few years younger] to try it and again as a Neurodivergent traumatized child I didn’t know any better and the dog I still have, I let her do things like Hump me in heat or encouraged her to soon she got spayed and stopped liking me as a whole after many years of growth she now is my best pet companion but I feel so much guilt & sadness when I think of these sicking actions that I committed when I was younger.
