I am a M and was raped by a M family member when I was younger. It hurt, and he used me and took pics and video each time. He used that as Blackmail to keep quiet and keep letting him use me. I became numb and allowed him to do it thru my Teens. Now I can only get off by being raped or fucked by Men. I wish I was normal and never have been raped and allowed it over and over. My Uncle is still around and teases me the fun we used to have when I was younger.