Feel so gd filthy right now. Posted a bit ago about mother in law catching brother in law f****** me in the a** while wife is out of town. Got caught this morning and just talked to mother in law. She said she was disgusted at her son and me both but more so at me because as she put it cheating on one of her children with the other was disgusting. She said she had never understood how two men can do such a thing. She asked the blunt questions like was I sucking his c*** also. The only “bright” side was that she blamed him because while my wife/her daughter did not know it, he had apparently done this with more than one of her past boyfriends. Apparently some form of sibling rivalry on his part because she was better at school and other things so he had a habit of turning his sister’s boyfriends out as childish vengeance. I felt even worse then because I had naively thought he was into me for the s** at least. She said she could understand because she had seen clearly that I was enjoying it because she had listened just past the door for quite a while before having the stomach to look and even then she had been there for much longer watching silently than I had realized. She said that it was only to avoid breaking her daughter’s heart that she was not going to tell her that she had caught her son f****** her son in law or that her son in law had been enthusiastically enjoying it “like some wanton f***** w****”. That really made me want to crawl into a hole and die. She said that she would keep the disgusting secret but to not be confident or think I had gotten off lucky because she had every intention of making me suffer for the price of her keeping “my filthy secret.” She warned me that I had better be ready to acxwpt whatever conditions she set.