I think I raped a girl. At the time, I was a virgin and was excited by the idea that I could possibly lose my virginity to the girl in question. I brought her over to my house (she came willingly), however she was drunk and not in a state to give consent. I was sober, and knowingly took advantage of the situation because I just wanted to lose my v-card. I walked her home, and she never did say “no”, but I know she was not mentally capable of saying yes or no at that point. I feel guilty every day, and I’m going to a church to confess to a pastor tomorrow. I am a disgust to myself, and not a day goes by that I don’t hate myself for it. I am so so sorry.