I’m beginning to realize that a lot of the things I held as truths were
merely delusions. Im beginning to realize that someone who I thought was evil and manipulative was
just a victim of my own cruelty and neurosis. I am filled with shame and guilt
from all of the harm I have caused. I am filled with remorse for terrorising
someone who went out of their way to help me by saving my life. I will use all of these
difficult emotions and realisations to cultivate loving kindness for myself and others. I want to make sure
that I do not repeat these mistakes I have made. I do not want to let my own delusions to allow me to cause psychological
harm to others. I do not want to be a problem anymore. I want to take accountability for my actions and cultivate growth.
I want to be more in touch with my and other’s humanity. I want to be more capable of looking at things from different perspectives
than my own. -cb