I am a Muslim woman in my mid 20s, I have blamed a guy I was in love with for taking my virginity and refusing to marry me for so long that I lost myself, but I still kept having s** with him because i felt now that I’m no longer virgin no one would want and that maybe if I kept giving him what he wanted he would love me and change his mind but he never did, so I wanted revenge and to punish him so I faked being pregnant several times to get his attention but he just provided pills for me to abort the pregnancy every time, and he still doesn’t want me. I feel guilty and I regret everything, I wish I never met him, I regret losing my virginity before marriage, I regret letting him use me over and over again, but most of all I regret the person he has turned me into. I am guilty, and I had to lie about being pregnant to get a little attention which is sad. If only he knew.