I had an affair with a married woman. She fell in love. Her husband found out and filed for divorce. I told her not to worry as I was going to leave my wife also. I moved out of my house into an apartment. She left everything behind (another city) to move in. 2 months later I asked her to leave. I still find myself giving her false hope that we will end up together even thou I moved back in my house. I can’t let her go for some reason. I do love both my wife and mistress. Sometimes I think I’ll be better off dead. As I drive I wish I would get into a head on collision with a semi. I can’t take this feeling. Thank you for hearing me out.