Have been happily married for years….s** is great….everything in the marriage has been great for a while. Some how though, another side of me developed that I started exploring. Long story short, I’ve found I secretly became an exhibitionist. I’ve been to a s********* once (my entire life), been to a n*** beach twice while on work travel, and have gotten several n*** massages over the years with some happy endings. I like to be seen n*** and will even walk around hotel rooms n***, if I see a female in a neighboring building, who can see me. Also, I have a very free-spirited former female coworker, who shows off her n*** photos to me and another male coworker whenever the 3 of us meet up. She just did it out of the blue one time and I found out that they had already been sharing things like that with each other, as they hung out with groups of friends oustide of the job, prior to me hanging out with them. I don’t know how to stop all of this behavior. I somehow want to get back to my life before I experienced and started doing all of theses things.