My pregnancy was the most beautiful time of my life. Not because of the excitement of having a baby, but finding another man to cheat on my narcissistic husband with, who really cared about me. It lasted almost three years, then I found out I was in love, so I broke up with this other man, and told my husband I wanted to divorce. More than nine months have passed since then, we’re still married and I still have feelings for my lover who is already with another woman. My husband never noticed anything. It seems I will never have the strength to start a new life, or be able to accept real love from anyone. And I believe I don’t even deserve it now.
