I never s******* abused anyone as an adult but still feel guilty about things I did as a child…
By the time I was 12, I knew that the s***** acts toward me that adults did to me as a child were wrong. After that, I stopped exploring with other children, including family members. If I had known earlier that this was wrong, I swear I wouldn’t have been involved in this sort of thing.
I never hurt a child in this way nor have ever forced s** onto a partner as an adult ever. I also stopped all inappropriate s***** behavior as a child once I found out some of the things I did were wrong.
I still feel guilty though. It also scared me when reading literature to help me heal from s***** abuse…it triggered me…an incident about a grandfather onto a child…I felt so bad about the way I got triggered, which also was arousal. I also had a dream once about this sort of thing but no never did hurt a child in this way ever.
I did a lot of work on myself…and I prayed every day for more than 20 years…please don’t let me be that kind of person.
I never did it to anyone but it did scare me. The way I had been triggered or aroused by inappropriate things sometimes.
