I’ve been cheating on my exams, I used to be a good student. There is this sort of glory in academically excelling, which was a spotlight I basked in but now with the pandemic, staying at home, online classes. Frankly, there is so much I could put the blame on but it is me who is sinning, deceiving all around me and the higher power. Earlier this year I told myself that I would work hard and attempt all papers honestly but I didn’t. To most my personality only comprised of scoring well and now that I can’t, there is nothing left to me. I am trying so desperately to clutch onto whatever is left bur that has leaded me to the wrong path. There are honestly so many factors around my life where I wish for drastic changes but it is so hard to let go and just do the right thing. Truth be told I am not even trying, I don’t ever seem to have the motivation or energy to. Most of my time is wasted just sitting around lifeless, I feel so lost.
