I enjoy self destructive things. I like smoking tree at 15/16 even when knoeing the health risks, and im already having memory issues. I like not eating enough and staying up late. I like cutting myself. The thrill of the knife not going deep enough for blood so i carve away layer by layer of skin untill im covered in blood. I like sneaking out, skipping class, and getting bsd grades. Maybe its because I feel like im finally living life how I want, becuase I dont really expect to be here that long. But i feel guilty that i like these things.
