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I feel so f****** horrible. My best friend, we will call him A, I think this whole time I was being abusive and I just now realized it. I was rereading our text and our discord messages and I slowly started to feel sick with myself. The way I’ve been so controlling and so manipulative and so horrible to him has made my physically sick. I cant beleive i treated the ONLY person I had like a toy for my entertainment. Now I don’t want to talk to him ever again. I want to start over. I’m a sick human. I just can’t wrap my head around the fact that I used to think how I treated him, a person who hasn’t done a thing wrong, like a doll I could just play with and get mad at when it didn’t do what I wanted. I’m so sorry A, you deserve so, so much more then me. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

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