I get really horrible thoughts about hurting people. I was sitting in the car with my grandma once and noticed my grandpa’s tools and the thought that I could grab the hammer and smash her skull in came so easily to me. I want to be scared of this of the fact that I’m a horrible person but I don’t feel anything twards it. I’m just numb to it. Like it’s normal like if I were to act my thoughts out I would be fine with it.
